“If you’re going through hell, keep going.”
— Winston Churchill
As we view the parade of corruption watching Trump “clean up the swamp” and we appeal to the conscience of the “deplorables” among us to open their eyes, I am reminded that our society is looking more and more like my prison experience where, in retrospect, my erstwhile friends and associates resembled the current American government. As the inverted morality of Jean Genet meets Conrad’s cops and criminals, the obvious similarities to our politicians become more and more pronounced. Certainly like the Hamptons District Attorney’s Office under Thomas Spota and now under Tierney which has done little to reject that paragon of criminality. And Spota is now buying a pardon with the money he stole after only three years in prison.
Morality in government has become more vapid and non-existent as the greed and thievery becomes more obvious. Here’s a clip from my book about real prison where some of the current politicians belong as we move on into oblivion. We’re no longer the perceived beacon of freedom for the world — perhaps more like light from the oncoming train heading our way in the tunnel.
After all, it was my search for Truth and exercising my Freedom of Speech that they put me there.
_______________________________________________________________________________
No Place for Old Men
A long line of inmates in their green shirts and pants snaked along a wall waiting for their medication from the nurse. Inmates in their twenties, thirties, and forties as well as several in their fifties, late sixties, and seventies stand in line and then shuffle behind each other. Only five at a time are allowed to get up from the wooden benches.
The 79 year-old white guy, Murray, shuffling along on the line, is in prison for having hit his wife. His hearing is bad. He suffers from dementia and often does not know where he is. Correction Officer Plowman screams, “You deaf? I told you to get the fuck up!”
The media reports that thousands of non-violent inmates in their sixties, seventies and eighties were being considered for early release in the New York prison system was a fiction emanating from Albany’s PR machine. Everyone inside the prison knew that. Albany knew it, the Corrections bureaucracy knew it, and the Corrections union knew it. There was no value in having fewer inmates since that reduced overtime, especially in the face of the many prison closings. While the prison population was reduced, more of the older inmates were being imprisoned. Correction Officer (CO) Plowman, himself in his early sixties, and soon retiring after twenty-five years, showed no sympathy for the aging inmate. To him, the old man is just another paycheck, and he’s long ago been numbed by what is around him.
Plowman is balding with a goatee and has eighty pounds of adipose fat strapped around his belly. He looks pregnant as he sits with his feet up on the desk, chewing on his fourth donut that morning. He’s known as a ballbuster among the inmates, and he laughs at the old man shuffling along as he heads for the nurse’s station. Plowman enjoys harassing the old guys.
The nurse and her assistant, two plain, white, middle-aged upstate women in their forties look grim-faced and worn. They’re working at the only job available in upstate New York, where the town has grown up around the prison like a cancerous carbuncle. The women hate the inmates, especially the Blacks and barely acknowledge their existence – yet they know that this job is easy and well paid. And, that this is their only career choice. Like the COs, they know that a job making $75,000 a year plus overtime somewhere else upstate is a fantasy.
At the nurse’s station they hand out little tan envelopes of pills to a few of the guys before Murray reaches them on the line snaking along the wall. The noise is deafening because the floors are being washed and waxed by an inmate who is oblivious to anything going on around him. One of the nurses hands the old man his packets of meds after he recites, “Thalberg, G-2, 11A3675.” The nurse is about to hand him two envelopes, but the assistant drops one of them and the pills roll out onto the floor. A few land under Murray’s standard-issue black boots.
He steps aside to locate them, and bends down to pick up the pills, nearly losing his balance.
He hands them back to the nurse. She takes the pills from him, then shoves them all into one of the envelopes, and hands it back to the old man. Looking askance at her, he watches all of this, and then, without uttering a word, takes the envelopes and walks away.
“Next!” the nurse calls out.
Murray notices a black, 30-year-old man in a wheelchair in the corner on his way out of the infirmary, past COs Plowman and Zimmerman—the latter being the cop who runs the Law Library and works The Box, where he is known as a “Beast.” He has the affable demeanor and look of Dudley Do Right and is also known as “Timber” by the few who knew he’d been the victim of a falling tree. He had been cutting a tree down with a chainsaw one winter in minus twenty-nine-degree cold when it landed on his head. He hadn’t been quite right after that accident, and proudly talked about his 250 over 125 blood pressure and incessant headaches ever since. The head pain was often alleviated by beatings he was rumored to have administered in The Box. It served as therapy for him.
The inmate in the wheelchair appeared to be nodding off and wasn’t moving. One end of a tube was sticking in his vein, and the other end was lying loose in his lap, unfettered or connected to anything. Blood is slowly leaking from the tube but is partially absorbed by a blanket thrown over his lap. All of this is within the sightline of CO Plowman who’s lounging at the desk with his feet up, busy cursing out inmates and joking with Zimmerman and a nurse who just came on duty. The shapely nurse is giggling at the attention from the two COs. Murray is too confused and afraid to say anything to them about the guy in the wheelchair, so he saunters out.
The floor-buffing machine continues to whir. Cleanliness is very important in prison, but it is also noisy, and no one can hear anything. Debris is being blown all about the Infirmary—into its treatment rooms, pharmacy and waiting area. Domo, a young inmate being treated for asthma (a black male of medium height, slim, 20s, with a bald head), is sitting next to Bigs, who is there for chest pains (a 30-year-old black guy weighing 325 pounds). They both pull their undershirts up over their noses to try to avoid the noxious air they are forced to breathe. The smell of rancid mop water and cheap floor wax permeates the Infirmary.
Domo is here in prison on a five-year bid. He was not too bright and had been making his living on the street by breaking into vacant homes—foreclosures, known as zombie houses—and stealing the copper pipes to sell to a junkyard. The last time he did this, however, he decided to lay down in the basement of the vacant house for a short nap after cutting and removing the pipes. When he awoke, he failed to notice the smell of gas. According to him, he was watching television two days later, and learned that the house had blown up, erupting into a ball of fire.
He was ratted out by a friend and arrested. When the cop asked why he didn’t leave after ripping out the pipes he told them, “I was tired.” Of course, other versions of this story unfolded as time went on.
Ignoring the noise, he is making as debris is flying all over the Infirmary, the inmate operating the buffer is staring intently at the young nurse’s ass as she talks to the two COs. Dirt is blowing into inmates’ faces as they wait in line for medication. Plowman sees the inmate staring at the nurse’s ass and screams, “What the fuck are you looking at, shithead?”
The inmate operating the buffer looks at Plowman and then looks away. His job in the Infirmary is considered a good one and would soon be over. He’d gotten a ticket, a disciplinary notice, and his punishment was to be transferred to the Mess Hall, considered the worst job in the prison. Up at 4 a.m., back to the dorm at 7 a.m., then back to the Mess Hall again at 10:30 a.m., and off again from 3 p.m. until 6 p.m. Working with food, cooking, cleaning, preparing the meals, was a job that only the least educated prisoners got. And the civilians working in the Mess Hall were the most abusive. “Shitty,” as the buffer was called, didn’t really like to work. This was partly because everyone knew he was a little fucked up. Physically, that is. He constantly needed to use the toilet and emitted a tremendous amount of gas. No one wanted to be near him because he smelled of shit—he had trouble controlling his bowels.
Some inmates were convinced he had some kind of illness, possibly a parasitic infection, or perhaps even Hepatitis. Literally, he was known to shit in his pants and had been observed with feces trickling down the cuffs of his pants. His dorm mates barely slept due to the farting noises and smell. So, he was given a job in the Mess Hall!
Another line of inmates formed along the hallway wall, opposite the medication office, heading towards the sergeant’s office. This was near the room by the exit door where buses were boarded, and ambulances arrived. It was the room used for strip-searches, and today there was a lot of commotion and yelling by the COs. There had been a surprise search in the prison, and a couple of dozen inmates were rounded up for a “piss test” to find evidence of drug use.
“You refuse to piss, you go to the Box, you piss dirty, you go to the Box, you don’t shut the fuck up on line, you go to the Box. Now, line up and if you can’t piss when you’re told, you go to the Box. You got that? Now, you,” he motions to the first inmate in line, “go with him.”
A CO wearing blue plastic gloves and holding a little plastic cup leads an inmate to the single bathroom and leaves the door open where everyone in the Infirmary can watch. He hands the inmate the little plastic cup and says, “Okay, piss.” The CO stands next to the inmate with the plastic cup and stares at the black guy as he unzips his pants and pulls out his penis.
“Let’s go,” he says, “we don’t have all day.” The cop smiles as he focuses back and forth between the inmate’s penis and his anxious face. “S’matter, ya dick not working. You a homo? Don’t give me that shy-bladder shit.”
Later they all learn that the nurse assistant who’d been watching the guy in the wheelchair had gone out for a cigarette and left him unattended. She’d simply forgotten about him and gotten into a conversation with another nurse.
Suddenly, the exit door swung open, and two orderlies arrived to collect the guy in the wheelchair. They unhooked the tube from his arm and placed him on a gurney, zipped him up in a plastic bag, and wheeled him out the back door to take him to the morgue, as the inmates and C.O. watched.
He’d bled out in the hallway while the nurse’s assistant was having a cigarette and bullshitting.
Copyright 2018
Address letters or donations to The SoHo Journal, P.O. Box 1032, New York, NY 10013. Agent or publisher inquiries are welcome.
